I would reflect back on the past few years from time to time and usually I would get sad about it. I’m nineteen now, and I’ve still got a lot to learn.
But what I’ve learned today was that I am so blessed to have experienced the incredible moments I’ve had with certain people. I have faced love, I have had love kick me in the ass, I’ve had him come back to me briefly.
The past couple of years I’ve cried over boys who were not worth it, I chased after heartache, I became so bitter. I let people get to me. I dug myself deeper and deeper.
I’ve kissed under the stars. I learned what it means to have found someone that made you feel something. Talks about life, eternity, the universe, fears, death and sharing secrets between two souls at 11pm. Talking about God. I learned to laugh again. I picked myself up.
No matter how bad it had seemed back then,
I’m forever grateful for all the experiences I’ve had. I was in love. I was hurt. I know what pain feels like but also know how strong I could be. What I could be capable of.
It is important to understand that you do NOT need anyone. Don’t constantly chase after a tornado. Eventually you’ll rise up and tell yourself, “No one should have this much control over me emotionally. I don’t care how hard this it or how disappointed I am, I’m not going to let this get the best of me. I need to move on.”
I’m telling you. There are SO many things to learn, to discover, to understand and experience in this world. So many things we have yet to figure out about, not just with everything around us, but with ourselves as well.
There’s more to life than some boy who called you beautiful.
Remind yourself that people will not always be forever. That you will meet temporary people in your life and that’s the way things work out.
Life shits but I’m nineteen years old. I’ve had amazing days and nights with people who used to matter. I have yet to figure out the world and what I’m doing with my life.
So, this was it. I hope you’re coming into terms with yourself too.
tonight was fucking crazy
omg thank u